Lost and found

where should I start, loosing things, and then feeling like there's something wrong with me. I went to see puppies yesterday with Kessu and Kaito, in Rakvere I think. Yesterday morning I was playing angry birds like for a 30 minutes, I want your phone rasmus! :D
I just remembered I was lost, when I was trying to go to saku. :D going in the wrong direction. And washing my hair with rainwater... Maarja did tooo! :D
I really miss karu, seeing everybody, made me really miss my old life.

I will go to Estonia tomorrow. I can't wait, I havent been in there for some time. I want to see everybody and see everything. And to speak Estonian, all weekend only using Estonian. I want to see all my old friends, I really miss them.

almost summer!

Carnival ride.

I really love this song, it makes me want to smoke.

A lot has happened, my life is like a carnival ride. Building new strong friendships, and the adventures. Just having fun and finding myself again. Being just me, and not giving fuck what others think. In Estonia I always worried... In here I am forgetting the wind, followers, and all the shit. I feel like I used to feel, before I my life got windy.

So much has happened. I havent done "this week" post for some time. I really think I should write something, I don't write much anymore. I like to keep my ideas and thoughts to myself. I don't know... One moment I am sad and depressed, and other moment I am normal and happy. I feel like I need a good trip to Estonia, to boost my mood. I am happy when I am with friends. But through school days I have a lot of me time.

 @Sleepover

Simple day... :D

Vittu see on minu elu.

Fuck this shit. What the hell am I doing? I should just stop myself from being not me. I am sorry I only want the one thing I can't have.  I don't know what I want, but I still want it. I don't know what u are anymore. I want my life to be mine to live again. I want to wake up sometimes and think what am I doing here. I want to walk home at night to north-tallinn, with pepper spray in my hands. In here life is happy and simple. But i am not simple person, need to feel sad sometimes. All I want is to be more than u ever will be.