Most of my life, at least as far as I can remember, I have always waited. For better days, now I think those were better days. I wasn't happy like I am now, ok I am so not happy person in general. But I find happiness in simple things. It's insane to think back when I was 16 I could do whatever and now 19 I am under strict watch. I have to tell where I am going and when I am getting back. I think my family was afraid of me, or afraid for me.  My dream was to never get older. I wanted to live forever, I wanted to be someone important. I want to be god!