lately I been thinking about things I regret... There are very many things I regret doing and not doing... Not saying yes to opportunities and so on. and ofc letting things turn in to shit, and then throwing that shit at you. I have come to understand that I am not really open to new things. every thing new is always forced on me. And letting you as I know go, was the hardest fucking thing I had to do. I wish I woudn´t have wasted my time in my own lalalaland. I really have not changed, I just have lost most of me. People keep telling me that I look 16, I guess I still am 16 and so not over you... Well that would be nice, but I am 19 and over. I don´t even know who I am, even less what I want. I think I lied when I said I don´t need air to live. I need wind and I prefer it with fresh air. I am sooo desperate to be a happy person, i need happy pills. Just kidding, I just need to stop myself from thinking this kind of shit. Nobody gives a shit about my silly thoughts and this strange post entry.
I wish time would stop. why can´t I be 19 foreva.
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